~bhenti berhArap..

aku akan mencuba...

untuk berhenti berharap...

pd chenta...

chenta yg mbuat ku kecewa..

membuat ku merana...

membuat ku sengsara..

jiwa ku terseksa..

hatiku menderita...

AKU MENCHENTAIMU...

SEPENUH HATIKU...

tapi mengapa KAU lukai hatiku?

tidakkah KAU rasakan bahawa,

aku punya chentA..

melebihi segalanya..

mengapakah harus aku dikecewakan oleh mu..

kenapa sekarang,KAU mengecewakanku?

ketikA dihatiku..

kau segala nya HARAPANKU...

akan ku terima dengan redha..

walaupun hatiku terluka..

biarpun hatiku tidak rela..

akan ku kunci...

pintu hati ini..

utk dchentai dan mchentai..

INSAN yg bgelar lelaki..

aku penat mchntai...

aku penat utk terus setia..

pd or yg xmhargainya..

chenta suci,dAri hati ni..

kini,telah kau khianati..

semoga perjalanan cintamu..

akan mbhgiakn mu..

agar org yg KAU CINTA..

AKAN MCHNTAIMU....

norman...

~kkecewAan hAti...

entAh siApa yg sAlah..

aku pun tak tahu..

aku sendiri keliru..semuA ini telAh menjadi bebAn fikiran

yg xtertanggung..

KAU berlalu pergi dAri hidupku..

kerAna org KETGA..

atAu kau sendiri menginginkAnnya..

KaU berubah..

mengingkAri janji mu..

atAs sebAb yg aku tak tahu..

tanpa sebab dan alasan...

hAtiku telAh KAU lukakn..

disengajakn atau kebetulan..

aku tak punya jawapan..

kau telah melukakn hati ini..

saat kau berpaling pergi..

kini KAU bersama dia..

myulam bahagia cinta..

aku kini sendiri...

sentiasa bertanya pd diri..

apa salahku??

hingga kau sanggup meninggalkn ku...

KAU bina bahagia atas derita hatiku..

KAU myulam kasih,bengan air mata kekecewaanku..

KAU bahagia dengan dirinya..

sedangkan aku terseksa...

berendam air mata duka...

kerana kesilapanku dan keegoan mu...

~MY feeling...

if I could ONE wish..

I would wish to wAke up...

everydAy...

to the sound of y0ur breATh on my fAce..

to wArmth of your lip on mY neck..

the touch of y0ur fingER on my skin..

AND the feel of y0ur heArt..

beAtinf with me...

knowing thAt,I could nevER find thE feeling with anyone,

othER thAn y0u...

and now,I knoe...

t0 love is nothing..

to be love is something...

to love and be loved..

is everything..

I will alwAys LOVE Y0U..

in memoRy~

just in memory...

from 25/12/2008

until 18/7/2010....

kiTA ktwA bsAma...

mnAngis bSama..

sntiAsa bsAma....

telAh bnyAk knAngan yg sntiAsa dLm ingAtan ku...

xmgkin dApat ku lupAkan utk slAmanya...

wAlaupn akhernyA..

kAu xmjdi milikku...

hAtiku xpnAh brubAh...

mgkn ne yg tbAik utk ktA....

ku hArap kAu bhgiA bsAma diA...

jgn lhA kAu mhinA diA skirA kAu nAk mALngkah mninggAlkn nyA...

jgn kAu ulAngi apA yg tLAh kAu lakukAn utkku...

hArgai lhAa diA...wAlaupn kAu xpnAh mhArgai khdirAn ku,chntAku...

dAn pgorbAnAn ku...mAafkn ku Andai ku mlAfazkn apA yg tbenAm dlubuk hAtiku yg tdAlam...

rAsa yg ttinggAl ktikA kau mningggAlkn ku...

dAri hAtiku yg tdAlam..

ku amAt mchentAimu NORMAN...

biAr lhA ku yg mnAnti mu...wAlaupon xpAsti lg kAu akn kmbLI...

hAnya coretAn ni yg ku buAt hAnya utk kAmu...

coretAn ktikA ku mrndUi mu...ktikA ku sgt mchntAimu..

p biAr lhA ku sndri mrAwat smUA nyA....hAnya aku yg mchntAimu sLAmnya..

ku xmAu kAu tahu yg hatiku sntiAsa mchntAimu...

hAti ku,jiwAku..

utkmU,ingAtlhA aku dmAsa lApangmu..wAlaupn dhAri2 mu dhiAsi snyumAn

ktAwa si diA...

mAafkn ku Andai ku xmAmpu mlupAkn mu...

mlupAkn sgAlnyA ttg kAmu...

krAna ku xmAmpu...

~wanita yg mcintAimu~

~crying....

skRAng bwu ku tAhu....

kbAhagian yg dulu ku dAmba kn..

rupAnya,hAnya sementAra....

ku akAn bhenti mnAngis...

biAr hAti ku yg mrintih...

biAr hatiku mnAngis...

hAnya ku yg tAhu...

kini bwu ku sedAr....

sgAla yg tjAdi,hAnya purA2..

huh! kAu mbiArkn aku..

kseorAngn ..ksepiAn..

p xpnAh ku myesAli ppisAhan ne..

mgkin ne yg tbAik...

if she sAy,she love u...

u must love her oso...

i not regret it..!

i not regret my love for u before...

honestly,smpAi bilA2 hAti n chentAku.. hAnyA utk mU..

wAlaupn ku xingin kAu kmbLi....

p hAnya tu sAtu hArapan aku.....

krAna ku amt mchentAimu...

myAyangimU...

mAafkn ku krnA xmAmpu mLUPAkn mu....

wAnita yg mchEntaimu~syAsya

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high

It never would've worked out right

We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road someone's gotta go

And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder

But I know that you'll find another

That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in

Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road someone's gotta go

And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted

Now all our memories they're haunted

We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter

Where we take this road someone's gotta go

And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better

But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone

You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone, already gone

There's no moving on so I'm already gone

with u,i'm everything...~stAr

The words have been drained from this pencil

Sweet words that I want to give you

And I can't sleep

I need to tell you

Goodnight

When we're together, I feel perfect

When I'm pulled away from you, I fall apart

All you say is sacred to me

Your eyes are so blue

I can't look away

As we lay in the stillness

You whisper to me

nAtasha,i love u...

Promise you'll stay with me

Oh you don't have to ask me

You know you're all that I live for

You know I'd die just to hold you

Stay with you

Somehow I'll show you

That you are my night sky

I've always been right behind you

Now I'll always be right beside you

So many nights I cried myself to sleep

Now that you love me, I love myself

bukAn ku bencik kAmo!

huh! hAti kU tiAp hAri ndA nymAi...

pgudAh dtinggAl ke d...

dlengkA ke d...

mA pnyAdi aku???

sdgkn ku amAt mrnduI d...

sdgknku amAt2 mchentAi d...

sowe..bA dyt00 ku mAntai ke sAda ati ku....

2tAhun dAh bgLAi ngAu d...p mA tAi bkAto gAga d gAi ku???

bsAi ne pnyAlahku??pnyAlah ku ngsuH d brubAh???

pnyAlah ku ke ngsUh d bnCi gAi ku???

pnyAlah ku ke mEi d bdendAm???

p sEDar kh d???

pnyAlah d lebh ge ari ku??!

p xngwA ga...biAr ku jA sAlah bA depAn mAta d...

utAi dgAga d btol mgAng knI...

thAnkz NORMAN SUNTONG...!

thAnkz very2 much....

thAnkz gAi hinAan d sArinyA...

ku trmA s'adAnya...

ku xmAlas...p ku juz bhArap suAtu k'adiLAn dtAi ila...

nyA bwu d mU..

erti sbuAh CHENTA,PGORBANAN..

SORANG INSAN YG BNAMA..

~AKU~

swAktu kAu mlAngkAh pergi...

mninggALkn drku..

sebAknyA rasA ddlm dAda..

menAhan titis Air mAta...

ingin Aku bpesAn..

kepAdamu kekAsih......

sekirAnya engkAu mrinduiku..

hubungi lhAa aku dsini..

kirAnyA kAu ada pggAntiku...

tEtapi,hdupmU xbhgiA..

relAku mmAafkn mu dAn mnrimAmu

sAyang...wAlaupun hAtiku kAu lukAi...

namuNku masih myAyangi

kRNa shggA waktu ini

chentA ku msih utkmu....

sAyang..dmAnA kAu brAda..

jAngAnlhAa kAu lupAkn aku...

ingAtlhA ku wAlau sesaaT

s'owg insAn yg tlukA.....

semAlam...kitA bersAma2 RIANG dan KETAWA RIA..

SUKA DAN DUKA..

KTWA BSAMA...

tapi hari neihh..aku sendrimembAwa sepi yg telah ku benAm jAuh dhAti..

dukA ku pikul sendri tAnpamu...

tAnpamu kAsih dsisi...

dtengAh sgAlanyA..mgAlir kisAh2 lampAu lalu...

ku tafsiR setiap...pristiwAdLm hikmAh..

menginsafi bhwA hdup ada pghujungnyA..

myedAri stiAp pmulAan adA titik akhErnya..

krnA smAlam...

duA knyataan yg bbezA..

walau sesaat bLalunyA mAsa xmgKin sAma....

~bicAra hatiku.....

sedetik waktu berlalu....

masih segar dalam igauan...

memori kembali mewarnai minda..

datang btandang tanpa ku undang...

semAlam..bAnyak yg telah ku pelajari...

kawan2 dAn psekolAhan..

mnungkah arus alam remaja...

walau sesekali kgagahan mgAtasi...

impian n harapan...

mrupakan cabaran dlm jiwA...

aku tekad mharungi sgaLAnya...

krnA aku tahu ianya amAt bhArga...

temAn2 yg diingati,,,stiap waktu..

namamu t'ukir indah...

biAr pun punAh dmAmah wAktu..

pintA ku terakhir..

kejArlhA sgunung ilmu...mAnfaatknlhA dsudut hAtimu..

krAna mAsa mgejAr kitA...

tAnpa mgirA dmAna kitA brAda...

krAna ktA bnmA remAja...

mnuntut ilmU penuh ddAda....

my pixchA~lala

blog ne hAnya utk corEtan hAtiku..xdA kaitan ngn cpA2...onLy me..

smuA ttg aku...okei..mAaf andAi andA trAsa..

first,i wAnt to introduce myself..

my full name;NATASHA BIJA DANIEL

everyone cAll me bijA..

my glamor name;syAsya..~

BIJA tu,bukAn xsdAp ddEngar..hehe..cumA tLAlu bAnyak slEng ibAn..hehe..

but,i love my nAme...!how bout u??did u love urself first??

ku lahir pd 1 0ktober 1994..mksudnyA,post ne dbuAt msA ku b'umur 15tAhun 7bulan..hehe..

not too young..not too old..hehe..

dlm post ne u all dpt taok lebh detail ttg aku...

first..ttg aku...aku skrg sekolAh kat SMMK2..form 4science3...

hmm...aku sorang yg chayangkn kwn2 ku...lebh mmentingkn mekA...n then i love my big family...my mumy..kdAng2 tu ku degil sgt2...hehe..sgt2 noty...

sorang yg plupa...mlaenkn hal tu sgt pnting utk hdup aku..jAhatkn??hehe

xkesah pon...krna tu aku!

ku juga sorang yg lebh sukakn kgembiraan spnjang hdpku...

i love it all...!hAri2 ku yg tluang,ku lebh suka luangkn bsmA kwn2...hangout smA2..

sorang yg cepat bowinx...sorAng yg talkactive...everywhere...

bukAn pasaL xtaok mAlu...krna ku sorang yg frendLy....

first i must do in my life is to love myself...

then my family..

my frend...

jesus christ....

nature...

n last my hobby....

coz i born to love everything...haha..how bout u???

i don care..coz u cant be me....sowe.....i'm nAtasha......

One Step At A Time

I'm just in the process in exploring blogging world.

So here I'm giving a try.